Bu yaz\u0131da kendine yolculu\u011funu ba\u015flatan bir deneyime e\u015flik ediyoruz. Fark\u0131ndal\u0131kla okunmas\u0131 temennisi ile\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Bug\u00fcne kadar yapm\u0131\u015f oldu\u011fum, say\u0131s\u0131 1800\u2019\u00fc a\u015fan ko\u00e7luk g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fmelerimden s\u00fcz\u00fclen hikayeleri sizlerle payla\u015f\u0131yor olmak muhte\u015fem.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u0130nsanlar \u00e7\u00f6z\u00fcmlerini; kendi biricikli\u011finde, kendi deneyimleri-de\u011ferleri \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131nda bulur. Siz, sorun \u00e7\u00f6zme sisteminizi nas\u0131l tan\u0131mlars\u0131n\u0131z?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2026\u2026\u2026\u2026\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kula\u011f\u0131mda yank\u0131lanan seslerle kalkt\u0131m sandalyemden\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cKalan \u00f6mr\u00fcn\u00fcn en gen\u00e7 g\u00fcn\u00fcndesin ve kalan yolun ba\u015f\u0131ndas\u0131n\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nereden geldi\u011fin de\u011fil, nas\u0131l ya\u015famay\u0131 tercih etti\u011findir seni ger\u00e7ek SEN yapan\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Fark\u0131nday\u0131m art\u0131k ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m hayat\u0131n \u201ctercih etti\u011fim hayat\u201d olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
D\u00fcne ait kitab\u0131 kapat\u0131p yar\u0131n\u0131n ilk sayfas\u0131n\u0131 yazmaya ba\u015fl\u0131yorum\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Hemen, \u015fimdi!<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2026\u2026\u2026\u2026\u2026\u2026\u2026\u2026..<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kendini nas\u0131l var etmek istiyorsun?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Yans\u0131z, yarg\u0131s\u0131z bir soru de\u011fdi kula\u011f\u0131ma\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Cevab\u0131 kocaman bir sessizlik\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ben kimim\u2026?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kimler i\u00e7in ger\u00e7e\u011fim?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kimler i\u00e7in al\u0131n\u0131p, i\u015fi bitince verilen bir nefes gibiyim?…<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kimde kal\u0131c\u0131 kimde ge\u00e7iciyim\u2026?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kimim ben ger\u00e7ekten?…<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ruhum kimlerle b\u00fct\u00fcn?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kime ters, kime paralel?…<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Hep bu sorularla \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015f\u0131m yola\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ne \u00f6nemsemi\u015fim kendimi\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kaf da\u011f\u0131ndaki en b\u00fcy\u00fck eve kurulmu\u015f ejderha gibiymi\u015f Kibrim\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131ma ne palavra sebepleri paravan k\u0131lm\u0131\u015f\u0131m\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Oysa hayat bana ben kadar yak\u0131nm\u0131\u015f<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Oysa ben kadar uzakm\u0131\u015f\u0131m kendimden\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Fark sadece ge\u00e7mi\u015f ve gelecekten s\u0131y\u0131rabildi\u011fimiz AN\u2019dan ibaretmi\u015f…<\/p>\n\n\n\n
O kadar\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Can\u0131m k\u0131z\u0131m\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Korkular\u0131ma esir oldu\u011funda g\u00f6zlerine s\u0131\u011f\u0131nmaya al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m liman\u0131m\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Oysa \u015fimdi g\u00f6zlerine bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131nda kendi korkular\u0131m\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcyorum sende\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kendimi g\u00f6r\u00fcyorum\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
K\u0131zg\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131m katlan\u0131yor yine\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Babam\u0131n bana i\u015fledi\u011fi korkular\u0131 hoyrat\u00e7a nak\u015fetmi\u015fim k\u0131z\u0131m\u0131n g\u00f6zlerine,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Fark ediyorum\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ahhhh baba\u2026.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Gittin belki d\u00fcnyadan ama hala beynimde hapissin\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Hala seni d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmenin s\u0131rt\u0131n\u0131 ac\u0131tt\u0131\u011f\u0131, ayaklar\u0131n\u0131 s\u0131zlatt\u0131\u011f\u0131 k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bende esirsin\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ahh baba\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ne olurdu, ger\u00e7ek olsayd\u0131n\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Oysa korku oldun sadece\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00dcrkek, korkak yan\u0131m\u0131n mimar\u0131s\u0131n\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Seni affetmeme ba\u011fl\u0131 var olmam\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Fark ediyorum\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
30 y\u0131l oldu gideli ama bana b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131n an\u0131larla hala vars\u0131n\u2026K\u0131z\u0131ma bor\u00e7luyum seninle kalan \u00e7ocuk yan\u0131m\u0131 \u00f6zg\u00fcrle\u015ftirmeyi,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kendimi sevmeyi,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00c7ocuklu\u011fuma \u015fefkatle sar\u0131lmay\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Yolum yava\u015f yava\u015f ayd\u0131nlan\u0131yor\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Eminim art\u0131k\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Senden kurtulana kadar soraca\u011f\u0131m sorular\u0131m\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
T\u00fcm bedenim li\u011fme li\u011fme olsa da,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ac\u0131dan bay\u0131lsam da\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Vazge\u00e7meden kaz\u0131yaca\u011f\u0131m seni kendimden\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ko\u00e7luk yolculu\u011fumda, yans\u0131mam\u0131n \u00fczerindeki tozlar\u0131 silkeleyen sorularla a\u00e7\u0131lan kap\u0131lardan ge\u00e7meye devam ediyorum…<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n Korkmadan…<\/p>\n\n\n\n Var olan yollardan y\u00fcr\u00fcmek zorunda olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 fark ederek kendime giden yepyeni yollar a\u00e7\u0131yorum…<\/p>\n\n\n\n Gerekirse yollar\u0131 de\u011fi\u015ftirebilece\u011fimi biliyorum art\u0131k. Hayat\u0131m\u0131n direksiyonunday\u0131m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Korkmadan uyguluyorum ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m kararlar\u0131… Not ka\u011f\u0131d\u0131m, kalemim ile yelken a\u00e7\u0131yorum “kendimle arama giren engellerime\u201d …<\/p>\n\n\n\n Kendime varana kadar devam edece\u011fim…<\/p>\n\n\n\n Sar\u0131p sarmalay\u0131p, \u015fefkatle sar\u0131laca\u011f\u0131m kendimin her zerresine…<\/p>\n\n\n\n Kalan \u00f6mr\u00fcm\u00fcn en gen\u00e7 g\u00fcn\u00fcnde ” var etmek istedi\u011fim kendim\u201d i\u00e7in gelece\u011fe y\u00fcr\u00fcme karar\u0131 ile kapat\u0131yorum ge\u00e7mi\u015fin perdelerini…<\/p>\n\n\n\n